Saturday, October 17, 2009

APA PERASAAN INI?

Ehem, Lemme try something new here. I'm gonna try typing and expressing myself in the Malaysian language. So here goes nothing.

Aku melihat keadaan sekeliling dan berpuas hati,
Keadaan yang aman, sepi dan suci,
Namun di dalam keadaan ini ku sebenarya sunyi,
Akal ku hilang dan perasaan ku mati.

Apa sebabnya ku jadi begini?
Adakah sebab rasa gatal di hati?
Gatal yang dipanggil cinta suci,
Kerana ku tak percaya semua ini.

Bagi ku Cinta adalah dusta,
Ia tidak wujud Di alam semesta dan Dunia,
Kerana tiada apa yang akan berkekalan,
Melaikan Kau YA ALLAH YA TUHAN!

Ku bangkit dari tidur dan berhadap dinding,
Penuh dengan nama mu ku telah conteng.
Hati ku berdering bagaikan loceng,
Apabila kau ada dan ku berpusing.

Aku tidak tahu perasaan ini,
Belum pernah ku rasa dan alami,
Namun Jikalau ku demam cinta,
Berilah ku ubat supaya ku sumbuh segera.

Aku tidak mahu perasaan ini,
Aku tidak mahu terluka,
Pernah ku cuba sekali,
Dan Kesakitanya terpaku di dalam memori.

Walapun Kau secantik umat,
Biarpun kau baik seperti nabi,
Doakan hati ku KUAT,
Untuk melawan ganguan ini.

Hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu,
Bertapanya sayang ku padamu,
Naman Takkan ku berani ucap.
Ketakutan hubungan akan direntap.

Jika tuhan memberi masa,
Dan mengizinkan cinta,
Di situ lah detik percayaan,
dan disitulah ku tunjuk kasih sayang.
Maafkan kata-kata ku,
Bahawanya ku tidak berniat unutk meluka,
Namun inilah hakikat yg benar
Dan dipijak pada bumi yang nyata.

Well i tried my best to express myself. and pray that all is well. Till next time.
SalamALAIKUM.

Ali Hakim Montashari Kathran.
17.10.2009

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Shit Blew

Getting back from an exhausting trip didn't make my heart that missed her any better. it only made it worse. I couldn't think of anything other then talking to her or chatting with her. Well i Did manage to go online. We chat for a while and stuff. How awesome. But things took an unexpected toll, After a while chatting i lost all sense of senses and had to say i was in love. Shit. Double that and add it with a triple fuck. Why the hell couldn't i just shut the fuck up? well needless to say what happened. You can jolly well guess the answer and shove it in Santa's ass for a naughty or nice wish list.

I;ll get over it. Its just one of those night.
Shit blew.
She's just not that into you. Booyaa baby.

and ouh to the readers as usual a thanks and a personal

FUCK YOU (*sing in a melodious tone )